I have been given this ‘space’ to have a go at assessing some of the information I have. Even almost to the last moment I am finding reasons not to do this (even writing this…). My resistance is concerning me. What am I afraid of? But I find a quiet space, away from family and I have it before me. This whole process has taken me over 2 hours. My hand aches and I know I must break and go back to my family. But I must write a whole picture of who [ participant N] is.