It is a number of weeks since I have written properly. The lack of contact with the study, but also external pressures, has made me withdraw and retreat and not want to expose the internal. The ‘spiritual’ has been going on but it has been ‘contained’. I am aware how much of this has been related to stressful situations affecting others. The wall I appeared to face were other peoples’ ‘bricks’. The reflection I have from this is that a ‘spirit’ can be suppressed in a number of way: as a coping mechanism when ‘life’ becomes too overwhelming: with a need to recharge: actually by choice, by shutting away; and how much it is linked to the ‘physical’, to ‘pain’.