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Have just had the first supervision meeting. What this highlighted for me is how much I have let this drift over the summer. I seemed to write the proposal so long ago and yet they are right in the journey is becoming more associated with ‘me’ than with the midwives I met with. I am…

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Attended the funeral of a friend’s mother. It was a powerful event, the saying goodbye of a family to the mother, the one who gave birth to them. It reminded me so much of the closeness of birth and death again. I was stuck by the power of the love that surrounded this family and…

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It is a number of weeks since I have written properly. The lack of contact with the study, but also external pressures, has made me withdraw and retreat and not want to expose the internal. The ‘spiritual’ has been going on but it has been ‘contained’. I am aware how much of this has been…

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At the qualitative research conference [Bournemouth]. Interesting session on thinking about quality in relation to qualitative research. It challenged me over the quality of what I am doing and how I will ensure the credibility of what I am doing. Presentation was asking the question of how I could do holistic research. It was challenging…

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Speaking on holistic care in Aberdeen. I fed on the time on the beach and the welcoming nature of the people. What I wanted to put across was the need for ‘respect for humanity’- respect and value. There is something here in the nature of spirituality being intrinsically linked with the humanness of persons.

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Spent time with a colleague over lunch and started talking about a ‘brick wall’ I had been experiencing over the summer, about the study and life in general. He suggested about the need not to dismantle the wall but to stand before it and wait. It was helpful to think about it.

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The journey today has made me consider the spiritual nature of places. The feelings evoked by being in certain environments can be very strong, some more positive than others. But of course, what brings this ‘feeling’ is not necessarily the place but the memories of it and it is the people who create those positive…

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Following creating the piece with the strands- I moved onto create one for the June Normalbirth conference. There was so much that came out of that for me- a number of friends have been dealing with cancer, or fear of the loss of family or unborn babies, or long-term illnesses. I have been unable to…

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Quite drained after yesterday but I did the focus group with the midwives- I took them lunch and we launched into it. They hadn’t done the reflective activity on practise, but I have asked if they would & they have agreed. The questioning started around the session and they picked out the video and the…

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Spoke at a Primary care conference on holistic care and spiritual issues. It was a challenge to[speak to] so many people. But some came up after. One said a woman had recently asked her to pray for her in the antenatal clinic- another said she had left the profession due to bullying and may go…