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Post Supervision I am feeling more comfortable with the way this is progressing now. The process of engaging and interviewing the midwives feels to be an important one if I am going to maintain a holistic focus. Why am I so resistant to opening up this data? That is such a good question and very…

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Went to the primary school nativity play. As usual it gives me a feeling that Christmas is about to start and reminds me what the meaning of Christmas. What struck me was the Head said this time about Christmas being about love and the connection between parents and their children. It was reiterating something I…

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A shift on delivery suite. I was surprised at my fear and anxiety but I am pleased I over-rode that! But it was so busy- full and unable to go anywhere. I tried to consider what was happening about me. The reaction of the staff to the shift was one of horror, of negativity. They…

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So what was that all about? To go in and start talking about my confusion about the question and purpose of this- why should it bring up such an emotional reaction? It feels a bit like a ‘silly little girl’ saying ‘this is my research and you’re messing with it.’ But it’s also a showing…

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For me spiritual expression is in worship. My soul is inspired though music, but how I respond to that is again an aspect of my choice. I don’t have to be open to the spiritual, I can remain closed up. But I see that in worship I am like a channel with what touches my…

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B6 suddenly issued a statement of her view of life: ‘Body, mind & soul & heart- to know where you come from is important- to know who your parents are; if adopted when a baby … to know your adoptive parents but they should tell you who your real parents are. Everyone should have stuff…

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[Notes:] ‘Clear idea of direction, but being comfortable with not feeling safe- if you don’t have a good design you could go all over the place.’ ‘Knowing why you make the decisions you make’ Messy!!! The questions this still raises is what do I really want to find out? I am feeling at a fork…