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At a church women’s group I go to the leader had brought a load of shells and we were encouraged to pick one up and to draw during the meditation. The shell inspired me to think of life this month- having taken on too much and to return to working four days a week. I…

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M and I led a Staff Development workshop today. There was one midwifery colleague there, plus a chaplain, someone from admin, four nurse lecturers and a researcher art therapist. Once again I was stunned by the power of the exercise- that in 10 mins they could create something so simple but so meaningful. I was…

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A friend and I were chatting about her role as a care assistant. She suddenly said about the importance of my hands-that touch people and bring care for people. It was a powerful message that I felt she was giving me- the importance of hands as the physical bringing to people the nature of spiritual…

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I have been given this ‘space’ to have a go at assessing some of the information I have. Even almost to the last moment I am finding reasons not to do this (even writing this…). My resistance is concerning me. What am I afraid of? But I find a quiet space, away from family and…

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Christmas day. Up until now it has been a blur of busyness; preparation, care for ill family, travel. Yet I am at peace and wanting to give. Anything at the TV remotely to do with children or babies brings me to a place of emotion. I enjoy the books of wonder on my own children’s…

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Away day: work [A colleague] presented some of his PhD study about the aspect of being a healer. I have noted down in my book more questions that he asked rather than what were answers and I recognise that is a lot where I am. – What was that quality being offered? – What is…

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Sunday morning and my two youngest dress up as angels for the church service. I contemplate angels as significant not just in the Christmas story but in my life. I am sure I have met angels manifest as people but I am also aware that there is a ‘presence’ around me. I would like to…

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I attend an intrapartum day at the unit as ‘training’. It’s all an ‘acute’ issue and we have a role-play situation. Immediately I find myself at the ‘patients’ head and ‘communicating’- touching, speaking, and holding a hand. On reflection it’s clear that I am more comfortable with this sort of role, of supporting, rather than…

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I do another short shift on delivery suite. Suddenly I am thrown into ‘nurse mode’ caring for a woman in recovery who is pregnant but has had to have a gynae operation. I spend the time ‘being with’ her and her family, doing observations, holding her hand. I find myself trying to ‘pour love’ into…